Its not a new chapter, its a new book. The first book was “I’m not sick, I’m a lesbian” a naive post I wrote a few months ago about leaving a TTC email listerv that was driving me crazy. The new book doesn’t have a title yet, but it is all about fertility issues and the google searches that haven’t happened yet.
What Happened Yesterday
I called Dr. G. with my weekend temps. Looking at them, I was fairly certian that we had not missed ovulation – but that I had not ovulated yet. He called about about an hour later and asked that I come in so he could look around… Crazy Wand Acrobatics inside my body showed…a follicle 10mm, one 7mm, and a polycystic ovary. I don’t know what that means yet. I don’t want to look it up… sounds too much like the PCOS that I kept reading about on the listerv I left and some of the blogs I read. Not only that but he also mentioned the need to lose weight and perhaps do some work with insulin. People — I have no idea. I was afraid to ask. In tears by this point. A, a recovering Biology Major, asked questions but I tuned out.
The Plan
We head back in Friday for more acrobatics. Hopefully there will be a follicle worth getting a shot for and we will do the deed on Saturday.
I’m currently in denial and trying really hard not to curl into a ball in the bed and google search until I can’t read anymore. I really want to go back to being a lesbian with timing issues and not a lesbian with fertility issues. I’m facing for the first time a small bit of fear that this might not be a matter of when…. but of if.
4 Comments
December 18, 2007 at 8:40 pm
So sorry you are having to go through all this. I have PCOS and although it can be an obstacle it certainly doesn’t count you out of the game. And not all people with PCOS have insulin resistance problems…I don’t have any insulin issues. I hope that your follies fatten up and pop out nice and healthy and can meet a nice healthy sperm and live happily ever after!
December 19, 2007 at 9:57 am
I too have PCOS. It seems like some sort of common theme amongst lesbian TTC’ers. And though I haven’t become pregnant (yet) I think for the most part PCOS is pretty manageable. I am on the metformin (insulin drug) and have responded pretty well to treatment. So what I am saying is you are by no means out of the game….you just have one more factor to include in the scenario.
December 20, 2007 at 3:57 pm
So sorry that doc phone call was such a downer…but take hope from all the other PCOS-ers out there who have conceived! It WILL happen for you. Not IF, just WHEN!!!
January 1, 2008 at 6:39 pm
There’s a PCOS blog for lesbians at insulitelabs.com. Just to let you know it’s a commercial site but it’s a great site with a lot of info and testimonials on it.