There are a million things I need to blog about, but I’m conflicted and full (of baby and thoughts.) I am exhausted. I still have every intention of telling the version story – but I might save the details for my birth story because in my mind that was the first step in suki-dot’s upcoming birth.
First, I’ll say I would do the version again with another pregnancy, just for the chance it could work – but it was really bad. I used every single pain coping technique I’ve learned. I think the doctor saw how committed we were and gave me a twenty minute break and tried again. All in all suki-dot moved 30 degrees out of 180 and the second the doctor stopped our headstrong baby slipped right back under my heart. I’m still sore today (2 days later). I’m convinced that this baby would like to enter the world Standing Tall – so thats what I’m trying to wrap my heart around.
Yesterday my uterus freaked out and decided to start contracting. I drank water, rested, laid on my left side, and took a bath and nothing helped. So we ended up on the Labor and Delivery unit. The midwife said. “I think this baby is coming soon, pack a bag like you aren’t going home tonight.” Amber was absolutely adorable as she ran around the house frantically collecting clothes, tripping over bags and generally being cute as a button, even though I was certain it wasn’t an emergency. It was straight out of the movies. If we do end up having a cesarean planned birth I’ll be so grateful that I got the experience of seeing her like that. Our doula met us at the hospital and they monitored the baby and I for 2.5 hours. I had erratic contractions and suki-dot remained fairly stable. The doctor came in and said, “I don’t think you need to have this baby today unless you want to.” Without thinking i said, oh no. Amber’s face dropped – i think she was so so ready to meet our little one. So we have an appointment next Tuesday to discuss cesarean birth and the risks and benefits of planned vs. unplanned. Seems we could have a baby pretty soon… I think we were both a little disappointed not to meet Suki-dot yesterday, but in my heart I know that staying put a little longer is a healthy decision.
so who knows…seems my body is getting ready and since there is no possible way I can have a vaginal birth as long as suki-dot is standing, and since I am 37w3days – we could have a baby any day now.
Oh yeah… here’s a picture of large.
please ignore the stretch marks... This is 37 weeks...
we did finish the nursery the night after the version. All the art is hung. This is the mobile Amber made and the corner of one of the frames she made.
11 Comments
September 18, 2008 at 10:16 am
Your peace with the birth process, despite the fact that it’s not going as planned, is really beautiful and inspiring. Much luck to you and your family.
September 18, 2008 at 11:16 am
Positive energy…. positive energy..
September 18, 2008 at 12:15 pm
What a sweet post. That baby will be a lucky kid whenever it deems to arrive. I’m impressed that you did the version w/o pain meds.
Thanks also for the terminology “cesarean birth.” I’m using that in my book. Because it is just as much giving birth as any other way.
Oh good good luck. It is all very exciting.
September 18, 2008 at 12:59 pm
You rock! Sorry the version didn’t work out but it does sound as though S-D will be here soon! Isn’t that amazing?!?!?!
September 18, 2008 at 3:08 pm
Wow, you look great! I’m sorry the version didn’t work but I’m glad you get a little more cooking time. It sounds like you’re handling all of this amazingly. You’ll be meeting SD soon – how exciting!!
September 18, 2008 at 3:45 pm
You are a super hero(ine). That baby learned its Standing Tall from you, for sure.
September 18, 2008 at 5:11 pm
You’re going to have a BABY soon! I’m so excited. And I agree, keep the babe in there if you can!
September 18, 2008 at 8:33 pm
I love the thought of Suki-Dot standing tall. Strong, headstrong and resilient. That’s how we want our children to be.
That hospital visit sounds oh so familiar. Uber stressful but ultimately frustrating. And the thought of Amber running around like that and you enjoying it so much just makes me smile.
And I am also very impressed at the way your approaching your impending birth experience. Just think, in the next month, we’ll both finally have them in our arms! Though the ‘could be any day now’ thing is quite daunting….
September 18, 2008 at 9:17 pm
Adorable mobile! sorry things aren’t as you had planned. It sounds like you are making a good decision about waiting a bit yet on the CB. Thinking of you.
September 18, 2008 at 10:41 pm
I too love the image of S-D standing tall. I’m sorry the version didn’t work, but you seem to be really finding your peace with the way your baby will be born. And from how it sounds, that will be soon!
September 20, 2008 at 1:24 pm
Wow. What a trooper you are. I don’t know if things feel crazy on your end, but you sound as peaceful and centered as a person can be. I hope that I might have your strength if (when?) I am faced with similar circumstances. Your little one is so lucky to have you for moms. I’ll be checking back frequently for updates!