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Looks good

Beta at 18dpo was 585. All looks good. Ultrasound in two weeks.

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Jealousy is Ugly

Really, you would think with one kid in my house and lots of personal and friend and IVP experience with this TTC journey I would be able to shed some of the bitter jealousy upon learning of someone’s pregnancy. In fact, no. I am very much still an angry bitter lady – with the caveat that I am still genuinely happy for first time pregnancies. Babies past that and I am a bitter mess.

So obviously the last try was out. And the Clomi.d made me crazy this round. My acupuncturist said my liver was angry. Something was angry because once again we missed ovulation. Once again we took some swimmer and gave it a hail mary try with low hopes. Seems as you age your ovulation and LH surge windows can sometimes shrink. So now I will be testing with an OPK 2-3 times a day. Bloody Hell.

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Hope is a thing with two lines

If I am not pregnant something is wrong with my breasts. I feel like all my milk ducts just turned back on.

#probablynot
#hystericalpregnancy

Testing in a few days.

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Hello blog friends.

It feels like a million years since I last blogged. I have an almost three year old now. Over the last 3 years of her life this blog has suffered greatly. In its place I became an avid tweeter, started a tumblr, maintain an instagram, created a pinterest, and manage a facebook page. Social Media took the place of this blog. I am so happy to be connected to a few of you in those spheres.

What I have learned about myself is that I am not a blogger. I needed to blog because I needed a community of women to surround me and hold me up as I tried to get and stay pregnant. We had no community or friends that had tried. So 4 years ago (this month) I started my blog and had our first IUI. My world now looks so very different. It is overflowing with kids and families and a wonderful community and for that I am so grateful.

So, why am I here. Well today my friends I find myself at CD1 and even though it was not the plan all along –  for lots of reasons, we have decided I will carry our next child. And who else but you all understand the gravity of CD1.

Due to a homophobic health insurance rule I’ve waited out a 6 month waiting period, started acupuncture, and discovered I have ce.liac. I’ve started prenatals and had new labs drawn and charted and opked. And now, here I am back at CD1. I am ready and excited to grow our family but dreading the emotional rollercoaster of trying.

So lovely IVP, hello. Not sure I will visit again but wanted to check in with my original community. If you play in one of those social media circles and want to find me, let me know and I will be found.

 

Oh yes, here is the kid.  She is wonderful and terrifyingly headstrong, eloquent and logical, cautious and imaginative.  I love her so.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Miss you

It’s true I do. Life is so busy and complicated. We moved. Kid is a busy 2 year old. Sickness. Facebook and twitter. But here she is.

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Im not leaving…

I’m branching out. I love my ttc blog. I love how it held my hand while I cried and held my hair while I threw up. But, I’m not TTC anymore. We may make another baby someday if we are lucky enough but it likely won’t be my body. I’m not closing shop, but I want a place to talk about my everyday. My struggles with balancing part time stay at home mom, part time small business owner, part time crafter, kind-of-attachment parent and wife of 7 years. so here I am… This community is sacred to me… If you want to follow me on twitter or find me a facebook please do. I’ll be here as often as I am now, but I invite you to visit with me more often.

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Snow, pictures, and a cactus

I have a new header… for those of you on a feed…I know I am partial but it is worth checking out. I’m snowed in so I get to blog on the computer since the kiddo is sleeping.  Its been soooo long since I have had these few moments. My town is pretending to be a new england town…  3-5 inches of snow today after 2 giant snow storms in the last 30 or so days.  Another coming Tuesday and one coming this weekend…  I like snow and all but i have a toddler that doesn’t wear gloves…  so yeah, I’m kinda ready for it to stop snowing.  Not to mention, they don’t know how to plow roads so the driving is treacherous.

Newest words: cactus (??), butterfly, thank you
Newest sounds – an elephant (soooo cute)
Newest toy love – harmonica and the old stand by tea pot

More BlissinRichmond photos.  We are going to do another one in the spring.  Its amazing how fast the kid grows… these were from November – shes so much bigger now.

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